Milestone 1: Achieved

 A new chapter has begun.

When I look at it a certain way, I can see myself writing page by page of The Life of Rina. And maybe, I’m almost heading towards the centre page of my book of life.

A few months ago, I kinda felt like numb. I didn’t feel that pressure of adulthood and I was basically just living my life. It got me thinking; is this what adulthood is all about? Living life, working just to pay bills? What are, bill-paying robots? Though I don’t have that many bills to pay because I’m still living with my father, I don’t want to be a mere money-making machine.

I was timid and quite illicit when it comes to my life plan. Whatever I wanted to do, I kept it to myself because I thought, why would anyone care about my life plan, right? If I tell people, they would probably thing I’m too ambitious—I run before I could even walk.

But last month, I’ve reached a roadblock. I was put in a situation where I had to choose between one or another; now or never. Two amazing opportunities came by and I couldn’t have both. I had to pick. I broke down. I cried and cried and cried. I phoned so many people asking for their opinions and when I heard my mom’s voice, I broke down again. I can’t remember the last time I felt so stressed out.

I was torn between listening to myself or listening to the elders. But I knew I needed to be rational so I started weighing the pros and cons of both options. You know what sucked? Regardless of whichever choice that I pick, I would be mentally down anyway. I could never please one party without hurting the other. No matter how many respectable and mature people that I talk to, the decision has to be made by me. They can only advise but it all comes down to one person—me.
When it came to the point when I had to give my decision to one party, I told them I didn’t have an answer.

“What else do you want?”

“I want to be challenged! I want to be pushed out of my comfort zone! I know I can do better than this! I’m more than what I am doing now!”. Well the words were something like that. I can’t quite remember but right after I said those out loud, I paused. I was taken aback by myself and I’m pretty sure everyone in the room were too. Wow Rina, you’ve stepped out of your shell.

I was pushed to a corner and I’m not proud of how I handled it. But that’s when I realized that some things need to be said out lout. You have to know what you want and you have to be firm with yourself.

But thankfully, my sudden outburst led to a better offer; basically everything that I wanted.
That was my wake-up call. That was the moment when I realized that it’s actually not hard to get what you want. You just need to speak up and be firm with what you want. We keep putting this unnecessary, non-existing obstacles onto our dreams and make them hard to achieve.

So that, my friend, was when I achieved my first milestone in my career. And it is a great pleasure to be able to share it with you guys.


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