Sharing problems.

Event managing is not an easy job. Especially when you're not even trained or went through an internship to see how things are supposed to be in places.


Stressful life so far. Mostly, i have to be doing everything by myself because the team can't seem to be doing anything like a team. You know, the normal it's-not-my-job-it's-his thing. I'm used to this kinda shit. Joining the school's editorial board was one of the best decision i've ever made. They gave me life changing lesson:


"People can act shitty all they want, but at the end of the day, you just gotta clean up their shit and pretend like nothing happened. Just be nice to people. But one fine day, they'll have a price to pay. Believe in karma. AnThat's life."

I don't get it why people nowadays won't be doing something without a putting any number on the table. What happened to sincerity and charity? Without mentioning a single damn word about cash, you just snapped with


"It's okay, you don't have to pay me. This is not my forte. You just pay him. He's a pro." 


I'm sorry, mister. You just dropped something. Your dignity. 


You might be older than i am, but that doesn't give you the freaking right to drive me around like a Hitler's messenger guy! We're in a team, God damn it! You are never a leader and you'll never be! I brought you to this team because i thought you'd be a big help. And jackpot, i was wrong. Hopeless.


I get pissed off and tensed quickly. And i prefer not to share my problems with anyone. I don't know why. Maybe because i find it not helping at all? Maybe because i think it's not beneficial at all? Seriously, if i tell you that i'm mad at someone, let's just say our Prime Minister, are you gonna confront him and ask him to stop doing what he's doing? You can't be that brave, no?


And so as touching me. I have this deep feeling of uneasiness when someone touches me. When they talk to me, for example? You know when the datins talk, they'd usually tap each other's hands. Yeah, that one. Or rubbing someone's back with the intention of making someone feel better. I just don't like it. I don't find it necessary. I mean like, come on, do you really feel a lot better when someone rubs your back?? Do you? Or you're just touched because someone cares about you? 


In all honesty, with all due respect, do not, i repeat, do not feel offended if suddenly i just put my hands behind my back or just brush off the place where you touched me. I don't know what got into me, but i'm really strict and firm, right now. If i don't find it necessary, i wouldn't do it. If i don't find something hilarious, i don't laugh. 




These are the good guys.
Thanks for your help, guys. I love you <3

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